Friday, April 28, 2017

Why so many needs, how do I get free of needing?


28 April 2017

In the course of this week we were all challenged in a new way that went deeper than anything we had seen before. It was in the area of needs and living a life of spirit. We have always taken comfort in the fact God will provide all our needs but in reality needs in and of themselves just do not exist on a God level. How can I have a need when complete? Now of course we all see the natural screaming at us and these natural needs threaten to take our attention away, they threaten to have us abide in their grip not in the limitless God. Together we can see a needless life and together we are walking into it.

We are yet to discover the freedom of spirit that arrives in a complete abandonment of needs and in fact the ability to not even see needs is more alarming than the ability to see needs met. Maybe children were meant to be a challenge to everything we have lived. A child does not see needs they just expect and usually in a very demanding way, They just never have a concern about life. We cannot say kids see needs but rather they have expectations and to them it is never a thought that those expectations will be disappointed.

A huge catalyst for change happened this week in our lives. The needs were piling up and personally the ability to remove my eyes off the needs was naturally impossible. One of our sons just turned 15 and another will turn 18. They are eating machines, I don't think it is even possible to fill them. I could give stories about the huge amount of food they can eat but unless it can be seen it cannot be believed.

So in a week of extreme need food was not abundant and the desire to find a corner somewhere and be alone was pretty enormous. As men we want to think about where we are and kids are a great distraction from us being able to feel sorry for ourselves. To be honest days like the day I was having are living misery. With no possible escape visible for the thoughts of the predicament closing in.

Over the journey of the next day an amazing thing happened that would help set a new course for life. A text message from a man in Boston who did not know much of us at all. We had spoken many times on spiritual life and he obviously was one of those men who just never fitted with religion. Being from Mexico originally religion was well known to him but he had no time for such things. The issue had been he was alive in spirit and never understood that. It had been a long time since we had talked and that was what made his text message even more amazing. It said “are you OK do you need $”

We spoke a few days later. Omar had been at work and saw a picture of our family without food. So he sent a text and not being a wealthy person acted on what he saw and deposited $225 into our account. Omar is a humble hard working man who sends much of what he has back to help his family in Mexico. He sent a message saying we are his family and he wants to help us. In reality his statement could not have been more true.

So as simple as that may sound it needs to be understood the randomness of what had just happened. He had no way of knowing except God. Now any in religion would clearly say Omar is not a Christian as Omar just does not fit that stereotype. Thank God for that as perhaps we are all realizing we are not Christians. Omar is koinonia life with us and that was nothing we would have defined naturally. Yet he is one with the godhead. He would not talk it that way but Omar is one in spirit and neither of us understand that.

So this raised a new level of spiritual life not ever considered possible and it bought release. The amazing continued when the next morning I stepped out of bed to a call form another telling me the rent will be paid. Marius had needs of his own but has moved beyond tat level in life. It seemed something was changing or had changed in all of us. It was never about the money or needs and never will be. As if it ever is all we show is we are not in spirit life. Needs just cannot exist in such a life and the existence of needs shows the lack of Holy Spirit life.

Now it can be a process to abandon and allow Godhead koinonia to empty us of the defilement of this world. The religious mindsets that have defined us all. But realistically it is as simple as abandoning the life we have known. Everyone wants this life in some way and every religion known to man is about taking aspects of spirit life and containing or controlling it. Teaching it and using ti to gain. Gaining peace, life, freedom, control, love, etc. In the case of spirit life who would not want its benefits and who would nto want its peace. Many are called in this case but few are chosen. The many choose not to be the few. They just cant let go and will always hold onto what their identity has been. The many will always love to hear spirit. Yes it makes them uncomfortable and causes them to feel inferior and insecure and to feel like they need to act. The many hit roadblocks in their path of abandonment and all this reveals is they have abandonment issues. Abandonment issues that come from having needs and seeing needs.

How would it be if we were so absorbed in peace that we never even saw needs. To abandon life in such a way that what was needed on the day just arrived. Lost in spirit life in such a way it created the moment things were needed. This is our life, this is where we are all and now we just relax and enjoy the creativity of a limitless union.

We have spent our lives convincing ourselves we trust God and not seeing the very action of trusting God shows we do not trust Him at all. We want to believe everything will be ok and often wrestle around in life until we find a place of belief but in believing all we show is we have no belief. It is impossible to believe, it is impossible to trust, it is impossible to know and see God in our natural. If we can trust, believe, rely on or have faith then in reality we have dumbed down our world to a religious level we can handle. We have control of our world and as little challenges arise we use our religion to navigate the challenge. We show our natural identity is alive and ruling supreme. This is religion and religion steals intimacy. Religion is the bastardization of spirit life and maybe no greater test for this than to ask do we call ourselves a Christian. If we do then we are trapped beyond any ability of our own to see a way clear.

There is no name for what we are in koinonia. The bible translators could not define koinonia and in so doing took a spiritual movement and made it religion. Perhaps why many will never understand the spirit of the bible. If we have any understanding of this we don't have it.

So living beyond the needs is when peace arises from our spiritual koinonia and we are not even aware there is a need. We have abandoned identity not by action but by abiding. In this abiding a peace is possible. What happens in these times is, we feel uncomfortable with the freedom and almost feel guilty we don't feel guilty. We find ourselves wanting to care that we don't care and wonder if that is OK. To be honest it is not OK to this world and never will be but in spirit life there are no cares.

We can say although spirit beings we have natural needs and in reply why point out. Needs only highlight where we have not abandoned life. Needs highlight religion and in the observation of needs we acknowledge we are in control.

Yes we have been cast into the extremes of life as koinonia and together we rise. This whole week has gone beyond needs and into intimacy and what came up is vision revealing some of our lives for what they have been. This vision will be outworked as we embrace the fragrance of life.

So yet again there is nothing we can do. We cant choose not to see needs. This would be self deception. We cant choose to live beyond needs as needs just scream too loudly. All we can do is allow the deposit of koinonia life to well up and come out of us. Lets say it again. Everything for life is in the koinonia and those in koinonia abandon to abide. We have been too religious in our definition of koinonia and through god using Omar we can only say koinonia is alive in ways and places we do well to see through our spiritual eyes. We are in each others lives to call out the holy and the profane and the profane in all of us is the walls we have erected in self preservation. These walls block us from spiritual freedom and as we become aware of them we cant remove them we just say “yes koinonia.” To say “Yes God” is too religious as koinonia is God we say yes to Holy Spirit ordained Godhead, “yes koinonia”.

The greatest blessing is to see a limitation in our life and not to act to change it. The act of seeing it causes us to lay down in exhaustion and say I cant change it. This has defined me for so long it has become who I am. In this act of honesty the Godhead brings life. Koinonia reveals, unites challenges and changes. It rises together, falls together and is transformed in unison. Such is the church of Jesus Christ that we are.



Thursday, April 20, 2017

Maybe how God views your prosperity


20 April 2017

I tried to write on this yesterday and it was impossible. I had said to Marius I see the problem but cant see the answer. As I wrote this morning I see most of what was written for the first time. I cannot say this came from my head as I have never seen so much of it.

Was recently when talking with Marius he challenged me and out of that flowed the Holy Spirit that goes beyond anything my brain can complete. Marius stopped me referring to the money he had sent as coming from him. Now certainly we can say it did in one sense but there is a bigger picture he pointed out. Marius had the revelation that the money that comes in and out of the koinonia hands is the life flow from all of us. If we segregate it then in so doing we are taking ownership on a level we are not called to be on.

So this line of discussion flowed further and as we talked something became obvious. Money resides outside of Gods world. It is a carnal invention and a natural necessity for any living in this world system as at this stage we all are to various levels. But money comes from the god of this world, for the people of this world. It became obvious when we see money or where it is going then there is an attachment to the God of this world. In deciding to give or not give we highlight we are religious in our understanding of finances. As Marius pointed out in koinonia spirit how could he not allow finances he had to flow to the body? He had no need to hear from God as he is united with a transparent God of koinonia.

The power to retain or release lies in the god of this world. We have been damaged by religion of control in such a way we just cant grasp what is going on here. We allow a consciousness to give or not to give, in God wants or does not want, and in so doing we are empowering the god of this world through the religious actions of the past. The power to stop or act lies in the God of this world and in limiting release we reveal the deception we all have been a slave to. Marius hit it on the head, there was no thought just action and this reveals true koinonia. To be honest maybe on a level we all crave for but fear.

Now we can make this discussion about money or actions but simply put in so doing we reveal our spirit is limited to this worlds system. This is about life the unity of spirit, oneness and unification. As one body there is a flow of life that goes beyond saying I will give or not give, God wants me to or does not want me to. On this level lies the entrapment of the god of this world. Lets face it money belongs to a demonic system and as much as we think we need it we really don't. The reason we need it is to stay entrapped to this world and its systems. It brings security, identity and control.

We used to say God provides and now we start to understand God does not provide. To say such limits God to a secular level. It subjects a Holy God to a god of this world and that can and will never happen. If God provides for me financially he is using money that belongs to a demonic system. But if God is just life then as I live the flow of life money “is” and what I termed as needs are no longer needs they are happenings or symptoms of life.

We have trapped ourselves so firmly in the system we limit the expansion of the gift of life. Realistically anytime the world “I” comes into our existence in spirit life all we are highlighting is our desire to live outside of Holy Spirit life. “I” will give or not give, “I” heard from God or did not hear from God etc. In koinonia life there is no longer “I” that lives but Christ that lives in me.

Give everyone who asks. In religion we say “I” will give if “I” have it or it is spare, if god tells me to or does not tell me to. Basically we attach conditions to the thought of our action. But Jesus said “give to everyone who asks of you”. I don't get that statement one little bit really. I had thought it is easy to see in koinonia but why give to carnal people who are not in koinonia? Then I started to see maybe the fact someone asks is not about the action it is about God showing us something deeper. Religion makes the focus the person asking, spirit reveals it is about life or the lack of life. In financial life we don't care as we never see and have no need to amass. If we see the request we are ensnared by the god of this world. In spirit life we will never be asked unless we are trapped or blinded by the god of this world. We will be asked to reveal we are ensnared. If we are free or spirit financial requests do not exist. This verse shows us our lack of spirit, when we wrestle with it.

Can we see there is something greater here. It is the revealing that today we give tomorrow as never arrives. To live with thought for tomorrow traps us in an endless quest to reach tomorrow and its needs. Honestly how often do we get asked for anything? If we answer “people always ask me” then realistically it is God showing us we serve the god of this world in finances not Him. God is causing people to ask until we get free and when we get free there will be no requests. I don't know that I understand that but perhaps that is good.

In being asked we are scared of abuse or people wanting it again and coming back for more. We have entered the religion of money and in so doing have revealed the god of this world reigns in our finances. We have seen finances and anything we see limits us from entering transparent koinonia. God spare us from the ability to see wealth and financial blessing.

Truly koinonia is transparent and as we live spirit life there is less and less ability to see ourselves. Money is a massive area and perhaps one of the last bastions of a era fading. Marius hit on a huge key that spirit life was stirring in him. His finances were not his in a transparent spirit and Marius got that. I knew it but my talk revealed I was still struggling to let go of the consciousness of past religious defilement. In attempting to make the clarity of koinonia that is clearer than crystal individual it was toxic to life. Yes life ultimately wins but why allow our previous defaults of understanding to define us.

The Godhead is transparent clearer than crystal the bible in referring to a spiritual flow says this, Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb. The godhead is transparent to our natural way of seeing things. We cannot distinguish between God the father, God the son or God the Holy Spirit they are transparent like crystal to individualistic identity and any in koinonia are being washed clean with a river of God that flows from the throne of heaven. Perhaps we can call this river koinonia life, a koinonia life called the true church of Jesus Christ that He is inviting to allow a transparency to flow into. Yes only those “called out” ones can surrender their individualistic lives to the godhead as they say “all of me” to a transparent koinonia.

Jesus knew it impossible for a natural man to enter the spirit flow and He knew money represents everything our natural man can identify with. It stands for everything this world stands for. Money can perhaps be seen as the pinnacle of a life outside of God. Maybe why Jesus said it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven. After all, when we have financial security who in their right mind wants to lose the identity financial areas bring?

Jesus continued by saying with God all things are possible, in referring to how a rich man can enter the kingdom of heaven. But it all comes back to koinonia is transparent like the Godhead. There is no power of ownership and choice. Inside koinonia as Marius pointed out, without thought he had to enter financial life by empowering koinonia with action.

So we are on the edge of discovering the limitless potential of koinonia finances, koinonia can have no needs as everything needed for every part of koinonia lies inside true koinonia. True koinonia has forsaken all and to me we start to see this may be what Jesus meant when he said. “Unless you forsake everything you cannot be my disciple”. True koinonia forsakes life and lives transparent by abandonment of life itself. True koinonia no longer has a power of decision given by the god of this world. In its transparency koinonia unifies in ways beyond our comprehension or control.

This is where great wealth lies and those who have the financial responsibility in koinonia will see the great flow of finances beyond all ability to comprehend. These ones have forsaken finances they have forsaken all and in the great wealth that lies behind the forsaking they are now financial prosperity for the koinonia. Without thought, without the need to know or see or hear from God they realize they are God and in being god they are a link to release. God kingdom come His will be done on earth as it is in heaven. This Lords prayer is a summing up of everything that we are discovering together here. Heaven on earth through the koinonia and this reveals in spirit community we have the blessing of heaven life here on earth. The “called out ones” the “bride of Christ” living koinonia is such a picture of beauty there is no difference in the dynamic between heaven and earth community. WoW! Amazing!

So yes inside koinonia there is great wealth but until the gifted and empowered abandon the religion of wealth the koinonia all groans together. God is revealing the religion we have all been trapped in. The god of this world has masqueraded as an angel of light in our finances and lives and we have served him while thinking we were serving the living God. I for one can see it in some small way but cannot comprehend even the depth of what is ritten here. This one thing I do know is the spirit is alive in us all and the deposit from heaven has been made so now we will see it manifest in koinonia life. Shalom!









Thursday, April 6, 2017

Koinonia true community in spirit


It had taken a process of months for one of the most unusual actions to take place. It involved the bank account. It is so easy to live watching a bank account. Now granted there are times there is necessity to look at balances but what if we were to live without knowing? What if we spend or do not spend according to a spiritual knowing. I guess in a perfect world a bank account would not be necessary but in this modern world it can be a necessary.

So we were standing at the supermarket register with our debit card saying declined. It was only $36 but we had run out of funds. We were attempting to purchase groceries for dinner but it was not about to happen. It did happen later that day but the day was to hold a twisting and turning of events as life was revealed. As a background we had been in contact with at least four people who knew a flow of financial life was knocking but struggled.

It was later that day returning home that a brief God conversation happened. I was asking God why not just make it between me and Him. Life would seem much simpler but there always seemed to be others involved in our ability to live. We always knew when someone was being led to give financial life and refused as there was a period of pain for us. Living so close to the edge you become acutely aware of such. The $36 at the supermarket was a classic example. But I was posing a question to God and the answer showed an amazing heart of God.

The answer came as a movement in my heart and a knowing that God desires koinonia with us. In koinonia when it is entered we are part of the Godhead, part of the “lets make man in OUR image” God was inviting people to surrender their identity on every level and become one with the Godhead. In becoming one with the godhead truly everything we are, everything we do, say, feel, touch, own etc is Gods. If it is Gods then it is also part of the koinonia. If we know koinonia exists then we know every person in koinonia are as God to each another. It gets back to the statement “how we treat our wife or husband is a direct reflection of how we treat God”. But now I was starting to understand it goes beyond that to “how we treat koinonia is a direct reflection of how we treat God”.

Koinonia becomes about its true meaning. Intimacy, intercourse, community, giving, sharing, fellowship etc. I could say, I only pray to God but in reality koinonia becomes my God because it is Godhead. It exists because of the Godhead it is “lets make man in our image” If I talk to God I talk to koinonia and my answer lies in koinonia. We have looked to God to answer our prayers and give us life but He looks and says the answer is in my bride, my body koinonia. So in actuality how we treat koinonia is how we treat God.

This was the why my card declined at the store. People around that had life knock were prisoners to decision, prisoners to the conscious mind that is empowered via religion. It has never been about money it is about identity and control. If any have identity and control they are not spirit they are making religion out of koinonia. True koinonia cannot hold the power of decision.

We have been held ransom by our religion that cheats and stifles true release of life. Religion teaches us to be stewards of what God has given us. What a demonic travesty as in religious stewardship lies identity and masked control and ownership. It is the religion of actions that has so many trapped in needs. They live the needs level. Meaning while they have needs they have ownership. It could be said we had a need at the supermarket. But in reality we did not have a need life “IS” and will be expressed. It was life for us to eat and we did and always have. How beautiful to have others who live that life with us in koinonia.

Take Matt for example. When I returned home and looked at the bank account it was overdrawn -$59.97. This never happens as we don't have overdraft, yet here it was. Matt and I were talking and he said without even thinking. “scott I was just given $60 it is all the money I have it is for this ” Matt did not make the decision he just knew when I cut he bleeds and when he hits himself koinonia or I feel the pain. This is gods heart, God is inviting us all to surrender control and what a beautiful gift to do so. It is in the surrender we pass out of the religion of koinonia and into the complete life of it. If we like the ideas being expressed here and decide we will give, then in reality we have nothing and it is a waste of time. Rather out of our spirit we surrender to the moment.

The beauty of koinonia is nobody desires to build their kingdom. So nobody ever uses anyone to get ahead. It is as the bible says in honor we prefer one another. God has koinonia to be life and bring life and feed life. That life is spiritual not a desire to acquire and any in spirit know the desire for ownership slowly dissipates.

The world is full of religious communes and expressions of spirit made by natural decision. These are an abomination and death they serve the God of this world. Some profess it is wrong to own anything and to sell everything and live together. This is not what spirit life is about. I have complete ownership while owning nothing. I enjoy the things of this world while having none of them. This is Holy Spirit Godhead stewardship in its beauty. Everything we are in koinonia is for His or Gods good pleasure and His good pleasure is koinonia “lets make man in our image”. Those who worship in spirit and truth are life and the more they journey in life the less they see natural identity or lines of separation.

So what happened with the $36? Later that day $36 exactly arrived in life. It purchased our dinner. It was exactly $36 no more no less and we never asked for it. Now some may see the pain in this story but really there was no pain. If there was we never knew it.

The only real feeling was a deep yearning for those who are skirting on the edge of koinonia. It was never about the money as some would make it or have made it. It was about intimacy, it was about koinonia. It was about those who see koinonia but struggle to let go. It was this time that our heart longed for the intimacy of unity. Yes it had become obvious some had the hand of God drawing them to koinonia but the religion of humanistic control still had its dark cancerous hand on their lives. What could be more sinister than ownership to hold a person captive. If we own anything then in reality it owns us, or the world system owns us. We can dance around it and rationalize it but we know we are trapped in a prison of self. We will own everything while owning nothing in koinonia. Maybe why Jesus said “unless you forsake all you cannot be my disciple”.

This cycle serves to reveal our religion of self and the lack of koinonia. When we live Holy Spirit life it is creative and everything we need is created. The first place God reveals life is in the koinonia. This is His greatest asset as it is Himself. The koinonia that is true koinonia, that is life no longer has the power of choice. It surrendered its power of choice when it made the choice to surrender to the Godhead. Now choice has turned to a flow of life or an embracing of death and if truly in koinonia life there can be no place for death.

So what of the folks who are in and out, who have decision and maintain identity of some type? They are not bad people they are just unyielding they have made religion from koinonia knowledge and after all who would not want koinonia it is a beautiful thing? Remember every religion in the world is formulated from a spiritual encounter and this is where they camp out. Why should it be any different with koinonia. People see koinonia, touch it, smell it, enjoy it, but if they never loose identity to it then all they have is religion they can control. A koinonia box they can live comfortably in. Can we blame ourselves for wanting control it is who we are as earthly people? Maybe why to live beyond this world is so precious.

Koinonia calls to us, koinonia invites us and the choice we do have is to surrender. We cannot take action towards koinonia as action is control. We just say “take my life Jesus” and in that simple cry of the heart amazing life now starts to be revealed. Then as we just live the desires of our heart are revealed as we are one with koinonia. There is a story in the bible that came alive to me during this $36 supermarket venture.

The Parable of the Wedding Banquet

Jesus spoke to them again in parables, saying“The kingdom of heaven is like a king who prepared a wedding banquet for his son. He sent his servants to those who had been invited to the banquet to tell them to come, but they refused to come. “Then he sent some more servants and said, ‘Tell those who have been invited that I have prepared my dinner: My oxen and fattened cattle have been butchered, and everything is ready. Come to the wedding banquet.’

“But they paid no attention and went off—one to his field, another to his business. The rest seized his servants, mistreated them and killed them. The king was enraged. He sent his army and destroyed those murderers and burned their city.

“Then he said to his servants, ‘The wedding banquet is ready, but those I invited did not deserve to come. So go to the street corners and invite to the banquet anyone you find.’So the servants went out into the streets and gathered all the people they could find, the bad as well as the good, and the wedding hall was filled with guests.

“But when the king came in to see the guests, he noticed a man there who was not wearing wedding clothes. He asked, ‘How did you get in here without wedding clothes, friend?’ The man was speechless.

“Then the king told the attendants, ‘Tie him hand and foot, and throw him outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

“For many are invited, but few are chosen.”