Thursday, November 24, 2016

Holy Spirit life Vs Natural life - can you see the contrast?



Any who have gazed or been heartened by the warmth of peace that flows via Holy Spirit life will no doubt sit amazed at spirit life’s dichotomy to normal life.
Spirit life is usually the opposite to our default, it is the enigma to our control, it is the frustration fear and terror to any way of life we have known. Natural persons crave it, the rich play with it, the poor reflect on it. All touch it some become it.

Holy Spirit life is the most peaceful and beautiful state of being that any can glimpse into or glance off. In glancing off so many strive to add it to the comfort or control of what they have attained. Perhaps to bring understanding to this we see verse and passages in the bible that are beyond our capability to grasp and one such passage is in the beginning of John 12.

[Jhn 12:1-5 NIV] 1 Six days before the Passover, Jesus came to Bethany, where Lazarus lived, whom Jesus had raised from the dead. 2 Here a dinner was given in Jesus' honor. Martha served, while Lazarus was among those reclining at the table with him. 3 Then Mary took about a pint of pure nard, an expensive perfume; she poured it on Jesus' feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume. 4 But one of his disciples, Judas Iscariot, who was later to betray him, objected, 5 "Why wasn't this perfume sold and the money given to the poor? It was worth a year's wages."

A few parts to note.
  1. Worth a year’s wages
  2. Poured on feet.
  3. Wiped with hair.

We can see a beautiful picture of a prelude to Holy Spirit life and do well to note Mary poured out perfume worth a year’s wages. So let’s say it this way. Mary poured a bottle of rare perfume worth a minimum of $60k in our world on the feet of a man. Then to add natural stupidity to it she wiped His feet with her hair. Feet that walked dusty street. The religious want to get all fluffy about this passage and say it’s because it was Jesus. Realistically what a beautiful demonstration of Holy Spirit life a life that is no respecter of persons.

In spirit life there is no value, there is no concern for today or tomorrow there is only peace and that peace is not derived from financial security (if there is such a thing). But we can see the two paths of life so simply in this passage. Judas who took the natural way saw the needs, saw the value and failed to see the life. To him as to all natural or religious they see money and value of the temporal.  
Spirit does not see or has no value in anything of this world. It lives a quality of life not comprehendible to a Judas. To Judas he was lost in the temporal. Mary was living the eternal of her gift and what flowed from her spirit. An interesting side note. Judas, like most today strived for things. He was the one who kept the money for Jesus and ultimately sold Jesus for 30 pieces of silver. Yet here he was envious of the waste. Yet a simple humble spirited woman, one the world would call simple or silly had a crazy expensive perfume and she tipped it out. Amazing to me! And a beautiful expression of spirit life.

Yes she was appreciative of Jesus but if you want to take that line Mary would have been better selling the perfume with Judas and ministering to the needs of Jesus financially. After all Jesus was homeless and needed woman to take care of Him. Jesus lived beyond the chains of the temporal and beckons for us to have the same pleasure.
Funny thing I see myself in Judas more than Mary. My brain would fight my spirit on this one. I would like to waste $60k on the feet of someone I love. But realistically my natural would be to sell the fragrance and take them to lunch. Maybe pay a few of their bills, you know something that would make me feel like I was a good guy in Spirit. I would wrestle with the humbleness to clean feet with my hair. Yes I could possibly talk my religious old part into this scenario but when I have to think about it all it would reveal is I don’t get it. In reality Mary was lost in something I see and are aware of, it is life, true spirit abandoned life. A romantic flow of energy and creativity that is never ending, limitless, full of ingenuity, originality and passion. The purity of who a Spirit person is can be no less that amazing. No care for anything, not by conscious choice but by abandonment to their co-joined gift.  

Monday, November 7, 2016

A conversation - The antithesis of religion



Not really anything to admire here. I just lived life and many times felt like I was surviving not living. The path has been a real mirror to reveal many things all of which ultimately come back to intimacy. Or a pseudo intimacy I had created and placed God in. He was living in my sphere of understanding and comfort of an infinite God. Restricted by the religious knowledge and doctrines I had spent a lifetime amassing.
Something deep in me was calling. It had chained me, had I really had a choice my natural part would not have come. But my spirit man was calling for intimacy an intimacy my brain thought it already had.
An intimacy I now know was lost inside religion. It was an intimacy dependent on actions and others. I was lost and never knew it. I was always marked to never truly fit in religion or be accepted. This troubled me until this path revealed the intimacy of an eternal God romancing me. The romance was and remains so powerful it drew me to intimacy when my arrogant pride thought I already had it.

The religious understanding and systems I was part of were in fact creations to steal intimacy and the people inside them as wonderful as they are had a pseudo intimacy in many ways. Ultimately we were all living with orphan hearts and like orphans in an orphanage all came up with programs and actions to get attention from the father. Ultimately we all self-preserve and can never lay down our lives unto death.

I always admired your spirit calling out from within you for intimacy. Sure the world superimposes what that should look like. But you know more than any it is a deep “knowing” that causes you to never fit. You are a beautiful and amazing misfit sealed for life. A flower existing in a perverse system of man but trapped in not knowing how to truly connect and let go. (I am just writing whatever comes out so I trust it is life to your spirit). God is drawing you to your first love and in understanding romance we can only go back to your early days when Christ revealed himself to you in amazing ways.

I know nothing of these days in your life but I can type what comes out. Days of spontaneity where sleep was not a need as you were driven by the inner man bursting forth in a new found love of a creator. Habits fell away without effort or thought. Likely your language changed and nobody was even teaching you such. Like all of us we become like drunk men oblivious to life oblivious to needs and wants. This new “romance” is life itself and no longer can we be what we were. This my friend is romance it is not limited to love as love can be taught or earned. What you and I got with Jesus was never earned it was unjustified and troubling as to why it landed in our lives.
It was and still is an eternal Godhead romancing us with His love. Like young ones with orphan hearts we try to deserve the intimacy and in so doing it seems almost lost at times. But it isn’t, we go to church to try and create a culture of attaining more of it. Ahh we missed it as we are the church and the bride of Christ consists in the worshipers in spirit and truth.
We now let our head start to teach romance but in reality it can never be taught. We get flashes of the romance we came to Christ with, but fail to see these flashes of spirit romance invalidate everything we are. In spirit life we are undone we are incapacitated and immobilized. We can’t even feed ourselves and if we can we have left our first love. This is us in America, in the middle or immense prosperity we lived nothing and still do. But for some crazy romantic reason Gods love creates whats needed. I can’t help it or change it I can only enjoy it. This is hard to do as what once was my orphan heart wants to earn it. Holy Spirit manifestations do not validate us or our actions and the problem with churchianity is we validate our music, preaching, systems with these manifestations that are infect there to incapacitate everything we are. But our humanistic orphan hearts use these manifestations to build ministries and validate how right our doctrines are.
When nobody wants to listen to our doctrines we finally be still and in the stillness our first love ignites. This is me; nobody wanted to hear my voice here I was a burden a freak a misfit. Orphan hearts can never have intimacy with orphan hearts. They will only use each other in the most polite of ways in mutual agreement to attain. God stripped anyone from around me who cared. I tried to stay in the systems but they vomited me out. God reached into the vomit and found me. He seemed to wipe the vomit away and never minded the smell. He just encompassed me with a love I had never experienced. It troubled me and still does. As in the vomit of man’s efforts to please. He found and saw a gem, a jewel a thing of beauty. It was me!! And my friend it is you. Be different the romance is alive in you I can see it in the simple words you typed. The transparency you had in your email is a spirit buried in vomit that God is reaching his hand into to love.

Poem



One day today my freedom at last
One day today life is like glass. I see who I was and no words can describe. No longer a man I am left to abide.
To this world I am futile to this world I despair. But in heavens accord am seated right there.
Right there is my life seated in Him. No more to exist no more to begin.