Spirit guest or natural?

I have to be frank here. Religion when out of control is devastating. Wars are fought all in God’s name as men are totally convinced God wants them to kill and plunder etc. But on a lesser level we are starting to understand the exposing of religion shows an attitude of its all about me. In carnality we demand but in true spirit we don’t have to demand it is given. When we demand we reveal our carnal default. In Sspirit we rest and life IS. Needs are met! A few examples we recently had someone turn up for a bbq at our house and nearly 4 days later they left. Now that would be OK except for some of the events surrounding. Granted this person was searching and had been impacted by the Sspirit life. They were drawn to it but being religious struggle with how to respond. They had tried to manipulate our family and had done many inappropriate manipulations to try and get their way. Those manipulations took away from the active life of the Sspirit being manifest, the same spirit this person was drawn to that caused them to stay. Granted we enjoyed having them to a certain extent and even found the situation a little humorous. The person responded to the Spirit wooing by thinking they were supposed to live with us and flat out asked both my wife and I to allow such, at separate times. The person was operating in a carnal/ natural mindset, but how could they not really? You see religion reinforces the orphan heart a heart looking for love acceptance and validation. It was became all about this person and everything they did was to feed natural desires. They missed the point it was all about them but as soon as the natural religious part responded the Spirit took a back seat. They never stopped just in plain decency to ask if what they were doing was OK as deep inside they knew it was not. You see if it is Sspirit it’s not about me. Or while being totally about me it’s actually about you. Unexplainable Spirit truth. For people such as this person who crave the spirit community they cannot at this point rest and see God. They see the benefits of koinonia and want the intimacy but because of not surrendering their carnality it ultimately becomes about their needs above all else. This person would say how they loved the community they had experienced in our midst. They had been a joy and blessing to us in the past but are struggling to relax and let God be God. Wanting the fellowship of the Sspirit so bad they push to get it. The failure is seeing koinonia is not you scratch my back and I yours. We love this person but such behavior is just no acceptable in spirit life. Others are gravitating to spirit had struggled with the same. They could never understand why when asking for us to do things for them we would not. They struggle with attitudes towards me I think, and see me as a bad pastor as I do not help when needed. They just can’t see their default it comes from yet. I am pastoring them without them knowing as I refuse to do things that are coming from the natural expectation. Now if the tasks and requests were coming from Spirit life I would be there for everything but as they struggle to grasp Sspirit sometimes what feels like hate is actually love. Some cannot see their default is “its all about me” sure they can be nice and loving but there is always a request. A request we many times would have enjoyed helping with but as they are being pastored without knowing it they cannot see yet their carnal origin restricts other spirit koinonia folks from helping. Oh yes they help me and are very caring and loving and perhaps even demonstrating in their minds what they think I ought to be to them . But beneath it all was a default of “me” You see in natural life a default that says, you scratch my back and I’ll scratch yours and this is not Godly it is not Sspirit initiated. A lady we know told her family God wanted her to fast contact with her kids and grandkids for 3 weeks. It truly was a sacrifice for her but like all religious acts they totally fail to take into account anyone else. They fail to take into account there are lots of small grandkids who need a grandmother and her own kids may need her. Religion is all about self in God’s name. We can fool ourselves into thinking it pleases God and in actuality all it does is reveals how much hate our natural man has for Sspirit life. Just like the wars religious folks fight God has always told them it is OK but they fail to see it is religion birthed and lived in carnality. It’s all about them and spirit koinonia it’s all about life and revealing life in others not bringing death. The religious want to kill bad in themselves and others and the Sspirit wants to reveal life in themselves and others. Jesus paid the price and does not require sacrifice from us. You see religious folks will always be drawn to the old testament and live in there to validate who they are. They may have Sspirit but are choosing to live carnal validation of such. Pastors will isolate from others who do not think like them or agree with them and cannot grasp it is carnal/natural. Anyone in churchianity has experienced teachers who hold them hostage to the old testament. Tithing is a good example, in-fact everything that entails sacrifice is old testament and carnal in default. IN Sspirit life it is not a sacrifice it is life being revealed and comes across like that to all around. In New testament church it is not about what we do it is about who we are. The bible is a book that is life it is being written in you and I. Like a child in infancy we cannot live back in time at 5 years old. The child grows and the bible as the inspired word of God grows in us. I must live after Acts in the bible in Sspirit and in truth. Yes the bible is there for us and is the inspired word of God but the bible tells us we are a living epistle known and read by all men. So one tell tale sign of a person stuck in religion is their immediate ability to spout old testament legalism and sacrifice. The confusion comes as they mix it with Spirit and try to validate themselves to themselves with it. Truly the world is more open to God than the religious as the world lives honest knowing their deeds are worthless. The church world loves their deeds drawing their own righteousness from their deeds that in their eyes make them holy. But God told us our good works are as filthy rags in his sight. Just be Sspirit revealed, cease striving and know that I am God. Remember God called Himself the great “I AM” not the great “I DO” if we try to be like God we repeat the filthy crappy self righteousness of the devil and Adam and Eve. We can never be like God and in so trying we reveal we are repeating the error of Adam and Eve. We cannot be like God as we are co-joined with Christ and now it is no longer I that lives but Christ that lives in me. A Sspirit individual is not an individual he is koinonia Christ. He is Christ and Christ is Him not by the great “I do” but the great “I am” and then he will do from his BE. Not be from his do.